I remember you.
I remember how eagerly you listened to my heart and my secrets.
I remember how you wiped my tears
And made sure no sorrow was left.
I remember you.
I remember how loudly you made me laugh with your wonderful wit.
I remember how you squeezed my hands
And told me never to surrender and quit.
I remember you.
I remember how tightly you hugged me in your arms.
I remember how you promised to protect me
And guard me carefully from harm.
I remember you.
I remember the shock that ran through my veins.
I remember how you beat and bloodied my brother, my friend,
And tried to give me the blame.
I remember you.
I remember how long your fingerprints remained on my skin.
I remember how you cursed and cried and shook me and smiled
And expected me to give in.
I remember you.
I remember the long nights spent listening to you beg to die.
I remember how you kissed and killed us
And refused to let us cry.
I remember you.
I remember the relief when you were gone.
I remember feeling like I could finally forgive myself
And slowly begin to move on.
I remember you.
I remember how my hands shook when you returned.
I remember catching you staring at me with your wandering eye
And wishing you would burn.
I remember you.
I remember your betrayal and your violence and my regrets.
I remember all your torment and abuse
And I wish I could forget.
I remember you.
I remember me and all your victims you dared to call friends.
I remember that time someone called you good
And I wished my life would end.
Then I wouldn’t remember anymore.